Why Healers are Always Sick

It’s a truth universally acknowledged that a sick person must be in want of healing. But what if you’re both the sick person and the healer? How does that work?

A continuously healthy person cannot understand the healing arts. They haven’t spent enough time holding an illness within their own body, integrated the sensations and feelings, then transmuted them out again.

Also, someone who has struggled with their own health will have spent quite a bit of time seeking out remedies and if you’re anything like me, you will have used yourself as a guinea pig to figure out what works and what doesn’t.

There’s an old saying; Physician, heal thyself. It’s supposed to be ironic in that a healer shouldn’t be sick in the first place, and also that a sick person cannot be their own healer. In our society we are taught not to trust someone who hasn’t already got it all figured out and only take advice from those who display the paramount example of physical perfection.

It’s a load of crap.

If you have been put here on this earth to be a healer, you’re not going to be given excellent health throughout your life. What would be the point of that? You would have no impetus to seek out and understand remedies.

Instead, if you have endured ill health from a young age and survived to become an adult, or have experienced a breakdown in health as a young adult, or possibly both, this isn’t the universe punishing you; this is your schooling. You’re in training to fully understand the body and integrate this into your healing practice.

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Does that mean you should stay sick? No, of course not. You’re always supposed to be resolving lessons throughout life. If you have risen to the challenge of being a healer, then you should be able to gain small victories along the way.

Remember, an illness or a condition is not who you are. It’s just a challenge. When you let something define you, that’s when you have lost the battle. Even if the condition is permanent, it does not have the power to decide who you are and what you do with your life. Only you can exercise that power and choose to either give it away, or take control of it.

Overcoming adversity is how we learn best. It sucks, but it’s true. The reason why we learn better that way is because it forces us to care, and research has proven that our emotions tie closely to our memories. This means that the stronger an emotion, the stronger the memory.

We’re meant to care. One of the most crucial lessons we learn in this life is self-care, because it underpins any practice of helping others.

Wanna be a bad-ass witch healer? Figure out how to heal yourself and then you can teach others how to get there for themselves.

The Moon, the Goddess & the Pentacle

For the last 2000 years the number 13 has been demonised by the Romans and subsequently the Christian Church. But what is the significance of the number 13? Why does it pose such a threat to patriarchal religion?

The obvious answer is that it is the number of the Goddess, or the divine feminine aspect of consciousness. That’s the simple answer, but there is a whole lot more to it than that and the symbolism goes very deep.

First of all, Goddess was usually related to the moon. In pagan cultures, they observed the months of the year by lunar cycles and had a 13 month calendar (13 x 28 = 364 days, almost a perfect year). The early Romans instead observed a 10 month calendar because they believed that 10 represented perfection since it almost a neutral number, or possibly a number of duality like binary code.

Later on the Romans changed their calendar to 12 months with the addition of July (named after Julius Caesar) and August (named after Emperor Augustus). This pushed September from 7th to 9th, October from 8th to 10th, November from 9th to 11th and December from 10th to 12th, which is why their names no longer correspond to the Latin numbers they’re named after.

The number 12 is significant to the Jewish and Christian faiths as a representation of God, or the masculine aspect of deity. It is an orderly number which underpins much of the universal code of reality, as does the number 9. If you would like to know more about this subject, watch the video below:

So we know the moon goes through 13 months every year, as does the female reproductive system. This is more than enough to tie it to the Goddess, and to femininity. However, there’s more.

For the planet Venus and our planet, Earth, to align with one another in the same position of the sky, they must cycle through different numbers of orbits around the sun:

As the video showed, for every 8 orbits that Earth makes, Venus must make 13 in order to come back into alignment with the Earth. The resulting pattern played out in the cosmos is a 5-pointed star, or the flower of life, or the Pentacle. All of those symbols are associated with Goddess and all of them refer to the secret of new life.

So how did the Church demonise this aspect of deity? They called the “devil” Lucifer, which meant the Morning Star. Venus is the first star we see at night and last one we see before morning, which makes it the Morning Star. If you want to run a smear campaign against feminine deity, turn it into the devil.

They also turned the number 13 into an omen of evil. They refer to Judas as the 13th member of the last supper, and therefore it becomes a number of betrayal. The King of France arrested the Nights Templar on Friday the 13th of October 1307, again perpetuating that number as unlucky or cursed in some way.

As witches, both male and female, it is important for us to reclaim this number and to remember what it truly represents.

The last important aspect of the relationship between Venus and Earth is that for every 13 orbits of Venus, we orbit 8 times. This ties into the pagan observance of 13 lunar months cycling through the Wheel of the Year, or the 8 festivals. Once more, 13 is the goddess (Venus and the Moon) and 8 is associated with the Earth (planet and seasons).

If you live the pagan tradition of 8 Sabbats and 13 Esbats you will cycle through a harmonious year of balance between masculine and feminine energy. This balanced way of approaching the divine allows both male and female to co-exist as partners rather than adversaries, free from oppression or rejection.

13 Signs that You’re a Witch

Some people are natural born witches. You might have resisted the calling, but in the end denying who you truly are is more trouble than it’s worth.

If you still have any lingering doubts, check out the list of common witchy traits below 😉

  1. Curiosity – the first trait is the fact that you’re searching in the first place. This usually stems from the need to know more and understand the mysteries of life, the universe and everything. You will have started reading books, articles, blogs and watching videos in an effort to gain more understanding.
  2. Intuition – Somehow you know things which you can’t explain and others have a hard time believing you. In the end you’re usually proved correct, but it can make you look and feel crazy in the meantime. This may have made you feel as though others don’t have any faith in you, or have let you down. It’s important to remember that most people don’t have this kind of insight and you can’t expect them to make that leap of faith to back you up with almost no evidence. At the same time, never compromise what you know to be true or put yourself in a bad situation just because someone else said you were being paranoid or “unfair”.
  3. Clairvoyance / Clairaudience – You see or hear things which aren’t really there, but you can tell the difference, so you’re not crazy. If you have been taught to be fearful of things, then you may have only seen the scary stuff. Raising your vibrations and working from a place of joy and love will shut out the riff-raff and only let in the higher realms.
  4. Empath – You not only know what other people are feeling without them talking about it, but at times you can feel an emotion without knowing where it came from and it doesn’t make sense for you to feel that way. Your emotional state may fluctuate wildly as a result. This is something you will need to work on and involves strengthening your boundaries and also understanding energy better.
  5. Introvert – This refers more to a need to be alone at times rather than an inability to be social. Witches are often quite outgoing and exuberant in social situations but you may find yourself becoming either overwhelmed or drained by social activity, especially in crowds. The thought of a crowded place might stress you out. You will need to have alone time just to recover and get back to being yourself again.
  6. Night Owl – If you love watching the stars and moon phases, you may be in tune with the cosmos. This is very important in witchcraft, so a natural affinity will put you in good stead for magical practice. You may also find that you are lethargic during the day and then suddenly come alive when the sun goes down.
  7. Sensitive – Physically and emotionally you may be more sensitive than most people. For example, your sense of smell of hearing might be very acute and you can experience sensory overload. Or perhaps you cry easily when watching a movie because you have internalized and processed the story at a deeper level than most people would.
  8. Nature Lover – You need time with nature and animals in order to ground yourself. Sometimes you may prefer the company of wild beasts over people, which is perfectly understandable. Too much disconnection from the natural world and you may find yourself becoming highly strung. However, lying on a rock, or sitting under a tree, or feeding some ducks next to a river will pretty much cure anything which ails you.
  9. Justice Warrior – You’re a fierce advocate of justice for other people and the environment. You always want to do the right thing and can’t lie easily because the energy of a lie strikes a discord in your very core and throws you out of whack.
  10. Authentic – You have trouble acting in any way contrary to who you really are. This may have resulting in you being branded a weirdo by other people. On the plus side, you probably have a sense of style which is unique and full of flavor. Never give that up, it’s a beautiful thing.
  11. Old Soul – You may have been born a 50-year-old-man according to your parents, or you may have past life memories which you can’t explain. This is not your first rodeo, my friend, and you may need to process some of the baggage which comes with that.
  12. Energy – If you can sense energy flows, or visualise another person’s life trajectory and where it is leading, you are probably a witch. One of the biggest tells for this trait is if you feel released from pent up energy when a storm breaks and subsequently you may enjoy weather events which others would fear.
  13. Ballsy – People may admire you for your sheer ballsy-ness. It isn’t because you’re actually tough, it’s because you don’t know how to be any other way. You fling yourself head-first into things because you trust your intuition and you know stuff which others don’t. You are 100% authentic and can’t fit in with the herd so you end up standing out. You’re a beacon of light which shines brightly into dark corners and that can be very confronting to anyone who has something to hide. Never be ashamed of that light, or try to hide it. You’re not the one with a problem, other people need to lift their game.

Just remember that even though this is a guide for people who were pretty much born with witchiness running through their veins, that doesn’t mean that other people can’t become witches. If you’re prepared to do the work and are brave enough to do something completely different with your life, you can develop into a witch.

For some, it has been a long road of trying to hide, deny or bury who they are. In the end, you always need to be true to yourself. If you aren’t, that’s when things like poor health,  depression and anxiety can creep in.

Whichever background you’re coming from, embrace the natural power within you, nurture it, honor it and develop it into the beautiful gift it was always meant to be.

Why do we have so many Human Rights Movements?

I’m not proud of this, but I got into an Instagram fight with a teenager. How does something like that happen? Twitter fights, sure, Facebook spats, yeah maybe, but Instagram? That’s like trolling on Pinterest, it just doesn’t happen.

So the thing which sparked this argument was a photo posted by a popular celebrity figure:

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The caption attached to it was: “When Men’s Rights Activists talk about equality.”

In all seriousness, I get the perspective of the celebrity who posted. He is LGBTQI after all. Like a lot of people, he’s had to deal with some crap from the faceless scourge known as The Patriarchy.

My comment was about amalgamating all the movements into a Human Rights movement and actually getting equality for everyone, including men who have been victims of abuse. The teenager in question pointed out that we already have human rights and I should look it up.

Apparently irony was lost on that one.

Anyway, I learnt my lesson; never reason with an idiot.

However, it did get me thinking about all the various movements happening right now:

  • #MeToo
  • #NeverAgain
  • MRM
  • Feminism
  • LGBTQI
  • #BlackLivesMatter
  • The Dreamers
  • Pro-choice

Why is this such a thing at the moment, and why are all the various groups not actively supporting one another?

It’s almost like the Tower of Babel all over again. The problem isn’t that they can’t agree, its that they don’t understand one another, and that’s exactly how The Patriarchy likes it.

Now, don’t think of The Patriarchy as all men or any man. It isn’t just men and it certainly isn’t every man. Instead, think of it like fat-cats in suits and ties. They are predominantly men, but there are also women who perpetuate the system, just like the teenage girl on Instagram who was all like; “but we have human rights… duh!”

The Patriarchy is you, me, your parents, your school teacher, your doctor and probably your Uber driver.

It’s all the people who like the system just the way it is right now because they think it serves them. It’s the people who will protect the system even if it costs other people their freedom or even their lives.

It is society as a whole.

If we want to smash The Patriarchy, we need to change how we think about everything and be willing to let go of false security nets supplied to us by the system in order to keep us docile.

We need to re-think everything.

In psychology this sort of de-programming is called re-framing and is based on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. It is manually changing your default view of a situation in order to gain new perspective and to break old patterns of ingrained programming.

Most people run on unconscious thought programs. We’re taught them from a very young age and they have to do with whatever society, era and religion we’re raised in. Some people are smart enough to see through the lies and don’t buy into them, but most people aren’t. It takes too much effort, and they don’t have a motivating factor to prompt them into action.

Motivation such as abuse, discrimination, loss of basic human rights or loss of life.

Take the kids from Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School for example; do you think they would ever have marched on Washington if they hadn’t been shot at? Possibly not. They would have quietly gone about their lives, happily playing along with the system which had yet to fail them.

We put so much faith in our faceless overlords in government, religion, education and medicine that we never question the basics. Things like, why there are so few men who work in childcare. Is it because men get paid more and its a low paid field, or maybe they deem it “women’s work” and therefore beneath them? The Patriarchy would like you to think that way, but men do a lot of menial work for low pay and we never discuss why women don’t want to be sewage workers.

Perhaps it has more to do with the societal unconscious idea that men are incapable of suppressing their sexual urges and would therefore become predators if allowed to care for kids. Or maybe we unconsciously believe that men cannot be caregivers because only women are “nurturing” enough for the task.

Why do we place so little value on the career of childcare? Is there an unconscious belief that children’s lives don’t matter, or that a predominantly female workforce cannot be skilled? Research would suggest that the first 5 years of a child’s life makes or breaks their future learning capacity and job prospects.

If you examine the societal beliefs closely, you can see that something like gender norms is derogatory to both sexes. Men are sexual predators and women’s work is not of value. That’s the belief which underlies how we set up a system like childcare.

How many other norms are we completely blind to?

The good news is that all of these movements are highlighting different facets of the same problem. People are starting to wake up.

The key to waking up is to not just speak out about the one thing which you’re managed to notice, but to start listening to all of the different groups when they talk about their issues. You’ll probably find that you have more in common than you thought, and that can lead to bridging the gaps between different demographics.

My favorite example of this was made into a movie a few years ago called Pride which was based on the true story of gay activists in 1980’s London supporting the miner’s strike in Wales. On the surface these two groups had nothing in common and were almost at odds with one another. But in the most important and real way they had everything in common; they were decent human beings wanting no more than the right to live equitably with the rest of society.

When they supported each other, they got things done.

Collectively, we have the power to make or break one another. Which way we choose to go will determine the kind of society we end up having.

Gratitude

There’s a lot of advice to live life with an Attitude of Gratitude, but what does that mean?

For most of us, it may feel unnatural to express gratitude when in the middle of a situation which is dragging us down. Whether you’re in financial difficulty, or going through a break-up, or dealing with ill-health, these are all things which will make life seem dark and difficult.

Sometimes life is dark and difficult.

So how do you practice gratitude, no matter what life is throwing at you?

The real key to gratitude isn’t to say; “Oh, I guess I should be grateful that I didn’t die in that car accident, even though I have a whole bunch of broken bones to recover from.” (I mean, you CAN be grateful for things like that, but still…)

The key to gratitude is to accept that bad things can crop up and require overcoming, and to then go looking for other things to be grateful for.

Searching, noticing and being curious are the things which result in enjoyment. Enjoyment results in Gratitude, and the best news is, it doesn’t need to be something big or important.

You may be mentally fixated on problems at work, but if you can lift your mind out of that space for five minutes to go and find a flower in the local park, and notice that a bumble bee is making the rounds, you may just find something to enjoy.

Your body doesn’t have scale attached to emotions. You can’t be a little bit in love and you can’t be mildly angry. In the same way, you can’t have a tiny bit of enjoyment, unless you’re mixing it with negative emotions by thinking about the bad stuff while you’re supposed to be having fun.

The consequence of not completely allowing yourself to enjoy a moment is that the competing emotions will drag you down.

Emotions have a different mass to them, depending on how dense and heavy they are. Fear, anger, jealousy, sadness… they all weigh more than the lighter emotions such as love, joy and gratitude.

If you use more of your time and energy on feeling those heavy emotions, you will feel physically heavy and life will become as hard as carrying a boulder underwater.

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If you can release some of those heavier emotions, usually by allowing yourself to feel the lighter ones, you can begin to shed the weight in your life.

You may be holding onto beliefs that you don’t deserve to be happy, or that it’s not possible for you be successful in your endeavors. It may be time to examine those beliefs and decide if they are worth keeping around or if they might have come from other people who held their own toxic beliefs in life.

You have complete control over your emotions, your beliefs and your decisions in life. The problem for most people is that they are blind to their inner programming and often experience their emotions in an unconscious way. There is no need to keep yourself back from doing what truly makes you fulfilled and happy, but you have to start being aware of what you’re feeling in order to change it.

Just start living in the present moment and you will begin to notice your belief programming kicking in, but you will also start to enjoy the smaller things around you. Then you get to choose which one you spend your time and energy on.

The Awakening Crisis

Call it what you will; Kundalini Awakening, Shamanic Crisis or the Spiritual Ordeal. In the end it amounts to the same thing, manifested in a variety of ways and viewed from a multitude of contexts.

You’re waking up.

No one can say if the process of transitioning from a caterpillar to a butterfly is painful or not. From the outside it looks peaceful. Inside may be another matter entirely. All we know for sure is that a massive change takes place before the creature can spread it’s wings.

Human spiritual development is no different.

The cocoon phase is not a peaceful slumber, but an all out struggle to survive and hold onto everything you knew and thought you needed. You may struggle with depression, anxiety, migraines, fatigue, bowel problems, circulation problems, gland problems… basically you’re in crisis.

Once you start embracing the change and living your new truth, the struggle ceases. Fighting it is what prolongs the ordeal.

I used to regularly get migraines so bad that I would be bed-ridden for days, sometimes throw up and occasionally have to go to the emergency room to get put on a drip. My head would burn up and I would get a fever-rash all over my body.

I was on medication for depression and having counselling, the doctor wanted to put me on hypertension medication, I woke up exhausted every morning and endured daily bouts of diarrhea. If something startled me I would shake so hard that I couldn’t hold a pen or hold the clutch in while driving. My anxiety made it hard to socialize and also hard to go to work.

I was physically and emotionally broken.

Then, I started seeing the shadows. Again.

For a long time I had suppressed my ability to see and hear things I didn’t want to see or hear. I pretended to be normal, all the while raging internally to get free. I squashed myself into a box which other people had made for me, and smiled with gratitude at all the hurtful things they said.

However, I couldn’t ignore the hulking black figure which stood in my kitchen watching me. I felt for sure that my sanity had finally cracked.

In an attempt to drive it away I went back to church, but I found when I got there that I had moved past that point in life. I was beyond the phase when I needed or wanted someone else to save me. There must be a way to do this stuff for myself, I figured.

So I started reading.

I trawled the internet for everything I could find and I also raided the local library for books on every subject I could think of. At first what I found was all the fear-based stuff; stories of hauntings, tales of demonic possession, ghost hunters…

…but then I stumbled across other things; shamanism, druidry, witchcraft, esoterica.

I started to learn more about subtle energies and how they work. I learnt about vibrations and frequencies. I learnt about good spiritual hygiene.

All of a sudden I was equipped to deal with my own personal haunting and I was tired enough of being pushed around, intimidated, belittled and used by everyone and everything around me that I was angry enough to become bold.

I took that mother-fucker DOWN.

The migraines stopped. My anxiety abated, I woke up refreshed, and all of a sudden the world was in colour again.

When you have the power to take control of your life and instead consistently give that power away to others, it lowers your vibrancy.

If you don’t own your power, it allows others to take as much of it as they want. Often they will be actual people, but sometimes it is also dark entities. Either way it doesn’t matter; you need to cut them off from the free buffet and kick them out of your house.

When you start owning your power and using it in your own life, that is the point of no return. You cannot go back to being a caterpillar once you have wings.

The question now is; where to from here?

So many people after they have awoken feel the need to do something more with it than just look after themselves. The first rule is not to forget to look after yourself above others. This isn’t “being selfish” this is about conscientious self-care. If you’re not whole in yourself you’ll never be able to help others. This is good spiritual hygiene.

The mission isn’t to “save” everyone around you. The mission is to show them how to ignite their own flame and exercise their own power.

Sovereignty is the key. We are all capable and responsible for ourselves, which is the most empowering state to be in. Demonstrating this allows others around you to wake up too. Showing a way out of the labyrinth gives hope to everyone who is still lost inside.

Raise your frequency, be vibrant, and shine your light for all the world to see. The rubbish will fall away.

The Wisdom of the Ancient Egyptians

There are a great many hieroglyphs written on all of the ancient temples at Karnak and Luxor in Egypt and it became the 15 year work of one woman to translate them. Ihsa Schwaller de Lubicz published books on her translations full of ancient wisdom inscribed on the temples.

A lot of this wisdom is timeless and still bears out, even in our modern world with all of our technology. In fact, since we have lost a lot of what the ancients knew, it would be easy to think that ancient Egyptian priests would consider us a bunch of dumb-asses if they met us today.

Obviously we still have a lot to learn, or perhaps re-learn.

One of the things which crops up as a theme in their writings is the concept of every individual undertaking their own unique journey of discovery and wisdom. For this reason alone, I don’t think that the ancients would judge us too harshly any more than a parent judges a toddler for not having mastered walking.

What the ancients really knew is that for each person, it is never enough to know the theory; we must live the experience. Anyone can tell you what they know about life, but until you have integrated an experience into your physical body, it cannot be real for you. You can’t understand the concept.

In a series of future articles I will be exploring some of the concepts thrown out there by the ancients, but in the meantime, I am just going to provide a few samples and allow you to meditate on what they mean in your life:

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Man must learn to increase his sense of responsibility and of the fact that everything he does will have its consequence.

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The only active force which arises out of possession is the fear of losing the object of possession.

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Have the wisdom to abandon the values of a time that has passed and pick out the constituents of the future. An environment must be suited to the age and men to their environment.

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You will free yourself when you learn to be neutral and follow the instructions of your heart without letting things perturb you. This is the way of Maat.

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True teaching is not an accumulation of knowledge; it is an awakening of consciousness which goes through successive stages.

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To know means to record in one’s memory; but to understand means to blend with the thing and to assimilate it to oneself.

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The kingdom of heaven is within you; and whosoever shall know himself shall find it.

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An answer brings no illumination unless the question has matured to a point where it gives rise to this answer which thus becomes its fruit. Therefore, learn how to put a question.

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Every man is rich in excuses to safeguard his prejudices, his instincts and his opinions.

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Routine and prejudice distort vision. Each man thinks his own horizon is the limit of the world.

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Maat, who links universal to terrestrial, the divine with the human is incomprehensible to the cerebral intelligence.

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We will keep building temples until people realise they are the temples.